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na hi prapasyami
mamapanudyad |
Translation: "I can find no means to drive away this grief which is drying up my senses. I will not be able to destroy it if even if I win an unrivalled kingdom on the earth with sovereignty like the demigods in heaven."
Prabhupada: Na hi prapasyami mamapanudyad. This is the position
of material existence. We are sometimes in difficulty. Not sometimes. Always, we
are in difficulty, but we call it sometimes, because to get over the difficulty,
we make some attempt, and that attempt-making is taken as happiness. Actually
there is no happiness. But sometimes, with the hope that: "By this attempt, I
shall become happy in future,"... As the so-called scientists are dreaming: In
future, we shall become without death." So many, they are dreaming. But those
who are sane persons, they say: "Trust no future, however pleasant."
So that is the actual position. Na hi prapasyami mamapanudyad. Therefore
he has approached Krishna: sisyas te 'ham. "I, now I become your sisya."
"Why you have come to Me?" "Because I know, nobody else can save me from this
dangerous position." This is real sense. Yac chokam ucchosanam indriyanam.
Ucchosanam. When we are put into great difficulties, it dries up the
existence of the senses. No sense enjoyment also can make us happy.
Ucchosanam indriyanam. Here happiness means sense gratification. Here...
Actually this is not happiness. Real happiness is described in the
Bhagavad-gita: atindriyam, sukham atyantikam yat tat atindriyam. Real
happiness, atyantikam, the supreme happiness, is not enjoyed by the
senses. Atindriya, surpassing, transcendental to the senses. That is real
happiness. But we have taken happiness as sense enjoyment. So by sense
enjoyment, nobody can become happy. Because we are in the material existence.
And our senses are false senses. Real senses--spiritual senses. So we have to
awaken our spiritual consciousness. Then by spiritual senses we can enjoy.
Sukham atyantikam yat atindriya. Surpassing these senses. Surpassing these
senses means... These senses are, means covering. Just like I am this body.
Actually I'm not this body. I'm spirit soul. But this is the covering of my real
body, spiritual body. Similarly, spiritual body has spiritual senses. Not that
nirakara. Why nirakara? It is a common-sense affair. Just like if
you have got a hand, a or two, one or two hands, you have got two hands.
Therefore when the hand is covered by some cloth, the cloth also gets a hand.
Because I have got hand, therefore my dress has got a hand. Because I have got
my legs, therefore my covering, dress, has got legs, pant. It is a common-sense
affair. Wherefrom this body came? This body's described: vasamsi,
garments. So garment means it is cut according to the body. That is garment. Not
that my body is made according to the garment. It is a commonsense affair. So
when I have got hands of my shirt, this is my subtle body or gross body,
therefore originally, spiritually, I have got my hands and legs. Otherwise, how
it comes? How do you develop?
So originally we are all persons, no imperson. Krishna also says... He says
that: "These soldiers, these kings, you and Me, My dear Arjuna, it is not that
we did not exist in the past. Neither it is that in future we shall cease to
exist." So this particular instruction of Krishna, that: "I, You and all these
kings and soldiers who have assembled here, they existed. As we are existing
now, individual persons; similarly, they existed, individual persons. And in
future also we shall exist as individual persons." So where is the question of
imperson? These nonsense impersonalists, voidists. Therefore, the principle is
to understand things in reality one has to approach Krishna as Arjuna has
approached, sisyas te 'ham: "Now I am Your disciple. You just teach me.
Sadhi mam prapannam. I am surrendering. I am not trying to talk with You
on equal level."
To accept guru means whatever guru says, you have to accept. Otherwise, don't
make guru. Don't make a fashion. You must be ready. That is called prapannam.
Tad viddhi pranipatena. You can understand simply by surrendering, not to
test guru. "I shall test him, how, how much he knows." Then what is the use of
making guru? No. Therefore Arjuna says that: "Besides You, there is nobody else
who can actually satisfy me in this perplexed condition." Yac chokam
ucchosanam indriyanam. "My senses are being dried up." Because the
superficial senses... That are not actually senses. Real sense is within.
Hrsikena hrsikesa-sevanam. We have to serve Krishna, Hrsikesa...
Krishna is real, and we have to come to that position or reality. Then we can
serve Krishna. Hrsikena. Tat paratvena nirmalam. When our senses
are purified. Indriyani parany ahur indriyebhyah param manah, manasas tu paro
buddhir. These are different stages. This bodily concept of life means
senses. But when you transcend these senses, you come to the mental platform.
When you transcend the mental platform, you come to the intellectual platform.
When you come to the intellectual platform, when you transcend, then you come to
the spiritual platform. That is spiritual form. There are different grades and
steps. In the gross bodily platform we demand pratyaksa-jnanam. Pratyaksa
means direct perception. There are different stages of knowledge. Pratyaksa,
aparoksa, pratyaksa, paroksa, aparoksa, adhoksaja, aprakrta. These are
different stages of knowledge. So knowledge acquired in the bodily platform,
direct perception, is not real knowledge. Therefore, we can challenge these
scientists, so-called scientists. Their basic principle of knowledge is on the
bodily concept of life, pratyaksa, experimental knowledge. Experimental
knowledge means this gross sense perception. That is experimental. Pratyaksa.
Everyone says: "We do not see God." God is not such a subject matter that you
can see with this pratyaksa, direct perception. God's another name is
Anubhava. Anubhava. Just like in this room we do not see the sun directly.
But we know that there is sun. It is daytime. How do you know it? You do not
see. But there are other processes by which you can experience. That is called
aparoksa. Pratyaksa paroksa aparoksa. In this way, Krishna consciousness
means adhoksaja and aprakrta, beyond the senses. Therefore, in the
Bhagavad-gita it is said: adhoksaja. Where direct perception cannot
reach. So where direct perception cannot reach, then how you can perceive
anubhava? That is srota-pantha. That is sruti. You have to
take knowledge from the Vedas. And the Vedic knowledge is explained by guru.
Therefore one has to take shelter of Krishna as the Supreme guru, or His
representative. Then all these troubles, means ignorance, can be dissipated.
Yac chokam ucchosanam indriyanam.
So now Krishna may say: "There are, that's all right. You are, for
temporarily... You go on fighting. And when you will get the kingdom, you'll be
happy. There is no need of making Me guru. Neither it is..." Just like ordinary
men, they think that: "We are earning so much money. What is the use of making a
guru? I can understand everything in my own way." And another rascal is: "Yes,
yata mata tata patha. Whatever their opinion, that's all right. You can
make your own opinion." That is going on. You can make your own opinion to
understand God. So all foolish rascals, they're making their own opinion. No,
that is not possible. Therefore Arjuna says: avapya bhumav asaptnam rddham.
This is a very significant word. Sapatni. Sapatni means "rival wife,
co-wife." If a man has got two, three wives... Why two, three? Our Lord had
16,108. So this is God. Sapatnya, but there is no competition. You'll
find in the statements of all the queens in Krishna book, when they were talking
with Kunti, er, Draupadi, every wife was giving description that how much she
was anxious to become maidservant of Krishna. Nobody is rival. In the material
world, if a man has got more than one wife, there is rivalry. Rivalry. This
example is given in the Srimad-Bhagavatam that just like we have got our senses,
similarly, if somebody has got different wife, so one wife is snatching him
that: "You come to my room," another wife is snatching: "You come to my room."
So he's perplexed. Similarly we have got these wives, the senses. The eyes are
dragging: "Please come to the cinema." The tongue is dragging: "Please come to
the restaurant." The hand is driving somewhere else. The leg is driving
somewhere. So our position is like that. The same man, who has got different
wives and dragging him different room. This is our position. So why this
position? Because these wives are rivals. Here: sapatnyam rddham. If
there are many kings to claim one property, there is difficulty. And Arjuna
says: avapya bhumav asaptnyam rddham. "Getting riches for which there is
no other claimant. I am the only proprietor, even if I get such riches,
rajyam, such kingdom, suranam api cadhipatyam, not only kingdom of
this world, but also kingdom of higher planetary system..." These men are trying
to go to the moon planet. But there is, that is also another kingdom, another
kingdom. So that kingdom belongs to the higher living entities, those who are
known as demigods. They are very powerful. Just like Indra. Indra is very
powerful controller of the rains. He has got the thunderbolt. But people do not
believe this, but we believe. What is described in the Vedic literatures... Not
believe. You have to believe. This is fact. Wherefrom this thunderbolt is
coming? Who is arranging for the rain? There must be some director. As in
government offices or state, there are so many departmental management,
similarly in God's government there must be so many directors, so many officers.
They are called demigods. Devarsi-bhutapta-nrnam pitrnam. Devatah, the
demigods, they are also supplying us by the order of Krishna. Just like Indra.
Indra is supplying us. Therefore Indra yajna, there is sacrifice for
satisfying the different demigods. Krishna stopped this Indra yajna, you
know, Govardhana. When Nanda Maharaja was arranging for Indra yajna,
Krishna said: "My dear father, there is no need of Indra yajna." That
means anyone who is Krishna conscious, for him, there is no need of any yajna.
Especially in this age, Kali-yuga, it is very difficult to perform different
kinds of yajna. That was possible in the Treta-yuga. Krte yad dhyayato
visnum tretayam yajato makhaih. Makhaih means yajna, performing
yajna. Yajnarthe karmano 'nyatra loko 'yam karma-bandhanah. So these
formulas, these directions, nobody is following. It is not possible in this age.
Therefore the sastra injunction is: yajnaih sankirtanair prayair yajanti hi
sumedhasah. Those who have got good brain substance, so instead of bothering
with so many things, one performs sankirtana-yajna. These are the
statements in the sastra.
krishna-varnam tvisakrsnam
sangopangastra-parsadam
yajnaih sankirtanaih prayair
yajanti hi sumedhasah
So here, in this room, especially, krishna-varnam tvisakrishnam, here
is Chaitanya Mahaprabhu. He is Krishna Himself, but His complexion is
akrishna, not blackish. Krishna-varnam tvisa... Tvisa means by
complexion. Akrishna. Yellowish. Sangopangastra-parsadam. And He's
accompanied by His associates, Nityananda Prabhu, Advaita Prabhu, srivasadi
gaura-bhakta-vrnda. This is the worshipable Deity in this age. Krishna-varnam
tvisakrishna. So what is the process of worship? Yajnaih sankirtanair
prayair yajanti hi sumedhasah. This sankirtana-yajna as we are
performing before Lord Chaitanya, Nityananda and others, this is the perfect
performance of yajna in this age. Otherwise, no other... Therefore it is
becoming successful. This is the only prescribed yajna. Other yajnas,
Rajasuya yajna, this yajna, that... There are so many yajnas...
And sometimes India, they perform so-called yajnas. They collect some
money. That's all. It cannot be successful because there is no yajnic
brahmana. The yajnic brahmana is not in existence at the present
moment. The yajnic brahmana used to test how correctly they are
pronouncing Vedic mantra. The test was that one animal should be put into the
fire and he would again come with fresh, young body. Then it is tested that the
yajna is being performed nicely. The brahmanas, the yajnic brahmana,
they are pronouncing the Veda mantra correctly. This is the test. But where is
that brahmana in this age? Therefore no yajna is recommended. Kalau
panca vivarjayet asvamedham, avalambham sannyasam bala-paitrkam, devarena
suta-pitr kalau panca vivarjayet. So there is no yajna in this age. There is
no yajnic brahmana. This is the only yajna: chant Hare Krishna
mantra and dance in ecstasy. This is the only yajna.
So rajyam suranam api cadhipatyam. Formerly there were many demons who
conquered over the kingdom of the demigods. Rajyam suranam api cadhipatyam.
Just like Hiranyakasipu. He spread his authority even over the kingdom of Indra.
Indrari-vyakulam lokam mrdayanti yuge yuge. Indrari. Indrari means the
enemy of Indra. Indra is the king of the heavenly planets, and enemy means the
demons. The demigods and their enemy, demons. Just like we have got many
enemies. Because we are chanting Hare Krishna mantra, there are so many critics
and so many enemies also. They do not like. So this is always. Now the number
has increased. Formerly, there were some. Now there are many. So therefore
indrari-vyakulam lokam. When these demons, the population, demonic
population increases, then vyakulam lokam. People become perplexed.
Indrari vyakulam lokam mrdayanti yuge yuge. So, at that time, Krishna comes.
Ete camsa-kalah pumsah krsnas tu bhagavan svayam. There are list of names
of the incarnation of Krishna, or God. But after mentioning all the names, the
Bhagavata indicates that: "All the names listed herewith, they are partial
representation of Krishna. But the name, Krishna is there. He's real, original
Personality of..." Krsnas tu bhagavan svayam. And He comes... Indrari-vyakulam
loke. When people are too much embarrassed by the onslaught of the demons,
He comes. And He also confirms. This is sastra. One sastra says He comes in this
condition. And Krishna says: "Yes, yada yada hi dharmasya glanir bhavati
bharata tadatmanam srjamy aham: at that time, I come."
So in this Kali-yuga, people are so much disturbed. Therefore, Krishna has come
in the form of His name, Hare Krishna. Krishna has come not personally, but by
His name. But because Krishna is absolute, there is no difference between His
name and Himself. Abhinnatvan nama-naminoh. Nama-cintamani
krishna-chaitanya-rasa-vigrahah purnah suddho nitya-muktah. Name is full. As
Krishna is full, complete, similarly, Krishna's name is also full, complete.
Suddha. It is not material things. Purnah suddhah nityah. Eternal. As
Krishna is eternal, His name is also eternal. Purnah suddhah nitya-muktah.
There is no material conception in chanting Hare Krishna mantra. Abhinnatvan
nama-naminoh. Nama, the holy name and the Lord, they are abhinna,
identical. So we cannot be happy... Rajyam suranam api cadhipatyam. Even
if we get the kingdom of the demigods, asapatya, without any rival, still we
cannot be happy so long we have got material conception of life. It is not
possible. That is explained in this verse.
What is the time? Thank you very much. That's all. (end)